Lira Maki’s extraordinary message to the 14 -year -old

child,

It will be fine.

I know you don’t feel this way now. You are sitting at school. Other children make fun of you. You told the wrong person that you were crushed soon, they all knew your secret. It is terrible. It makes your life hell. They laugh at you, whisper about you and call you names. It is not nice. You can’t ask a very helpful person because if you do so, you should tell them the truth and you cannot do that.

They cannot know your secret.

Life is very difficult now. Every day, you wake up wondering who will discover your secret and hate you.

It will not be so always. It will improve.

Within one year, you will join a scheme that trains people of your age to be journalists. I know that the professional teacher suggested that he as an option and said no, because he seemed boring and all you want was writing but going with him.

For the first time in your life, you will feel good in something useful. You will find your call. You will meet stunning people. And when bad times come again – for your information, your first friend is not “one” and you will put it in the history test – it will be the press that helps you to the soldier.

Within two years, you will leave the school and go to a local art college. Don’t worry – you will be poured into friendships. These will be your first real friends in the half -term, the people who will answer your calls at four in the morning. In the coming years, you will only stay in touch with Gavyn and Jonny, but you will remember others with pride. When you are 17 years old, you will tell them your secret and will not mind. It will take courage, but you will do it. Javin will become a Christian and will be afraid to hate you, but one afternoon, you will get a text message saying: “This does not change anything. You will always be my friend.” Accept what before it as before.

You will go to university, as if you were always planning it, but you will leak because it reminds you of school where people were cold and you had a few friends. The campus is very large and frightening. But this experience will be your making.

You will make your way in the world for the first time. Through this, you will meet people who become your best friend. They will help you replace all bad memories with good memory. For the first time in your life, you will love yourself.

Three months before your twenty -first birthday, my mother will tell the secret. You will cry and shake and be afraid because she does not know what is wrong. Christmas will be just two weeks. You have to tell her because you met someone you like and you cannot live with guilt anymore. You cannot take out the words until you say: “Are you gay?” You will say, “Yes, mummy, I am very sorry.” Instead of getting angry, you will respond, “Thank God that you are not pregnant.”

You will crawl to her lap, cry, keep you and tell you that you are her little girl and how can you think anything will make her love you less? You will feel like a prisoner got their freedom. You will remember all the times when you appealed to God to help you because you were very afraid and you will feel very stupid because you have nothing to worry about.

You will tell my brothers. No one will mind. Mary will embrace you in the Castlingourt dining hall as you eat Kentucky Fried Chicken together and tell you that she is proud of you. Others will be removed about how they always know them. They will all say some differences in “I love you”, “I am very proud of you”, “This does not change anything.”

You will feel very lucky. I watched James expelling from his home after leaving his parents. I was at Michael’s house on the night when his mother said she would “beat homosexuals from him.” You will feel guilty that you are lucky and make it easy at the end, although you have gone there.

It will fall in love for the first time. Your heart will be broken for the first time and you will feel that you may die of pain. You will not do. You will overcome it.

Currently, you wonder if you are “normal”. You are normal. There is nothing wrong with you. You will not go to hell. You did nothing to deserve their hatred.

Life will not only become easier, but will improve a lot. You will walk on the street without fear. The teenage boys who did not meet them did not receive things on you and shouted names. Your friends will be the best that anyone can order.

You will be invited to parties. You will have a social life. she will be loved. People will use words such as “wonderful”, “wonderful” and “smart” for your description and you will forget the times when the other children said that you are “strange”, “strange” and “lesbo”.

“Ordinary” things will do. You will spend time with your mother. You will go to work and pay your bills. You will go to the cinema with your best friend every week because this is your rituals – dinner and then the action movie where things explode. You will fall in love again. You will smile every day, knowing that someone loves you as much as you love them.

Keep dusting, child. It is worth it. I love you.